The screen flickers on, and it revealed Zeke, with his head down, antennae back, and shaking slightly.
"Why? After... all... the shit I've been through... why would she do this to me...?" he lifts his head up to reveal the eyepatch on his right eye, and the scars above, and beneath it, that the eyepatch failed to cover. "That's all I can ask now... 'Why'..." he slams his fist down suddenly, his eye filling with tears.
"After all I've done for her! All I've sacrificed! All I've given up and had torn away from me to be with her! Hell, even my own brother wouldn't speak to me because of her!" his blue-grey eye, filled with hatred, hurt, and utter sadness, seemed to turn into liquid crystal as the tears ran down his face. "Why...?" he asked, again, though knowing he wouldn't get a response. He choked down a sob, his normally composed and proper self, now an utter mess. "S-Sin... my love... my... promised wife has... left me. She took our daughter, and she left me. A-as... I grasped her shoulder, nearly begging her to stay... She lashed out at me... and... she has taken the sight of my right eye with her. Along with my daughter... and my life... my sanity..."
He paused, taking a shaky breath. "She... clawed out my eye... and... as I lied there... bleeding and begging for her to stay... she..."- he gulped, choking back another sob- "smiled. My... my love smiled at my pain... I would have never thought she'd smile at me... in such a way. And Nayeli... my baby girl... my cherished little girl... clasped in her arms. Our daughter.
"I wonder.... if that's all she desired from me... the child she had taken away. That's all she ever said she wanted. That, and love. And... I had provided her with... all that... and more. And she just... left..." he put his face in his hands, breaking down and sobbing. "I loved... I love her still so much! Why?" he continued, asking the same question, and sobbing. After a few minutes, he calmed down, and wiped his eye, and under his eye-patch as a habit, flinching in pain at the still fresh wounds. "It's been three whole days... this isn't like when she left me for that... idiot... no... I know she's not coming back. The cruel smile on her face made that clear to me."
He sighed, and lied his head down on the desk, staring at the camera. "Dez... I admit, had warned me of her cruelty. She had hosted Sin... and the poor girl has seen enough to know the Goddess better than anyone. I was a fool to think I knew her better. Dez has been... a loyal friend through this. She hasn't once complained about my behavior... helping me out of bed, forcing me to eat, even watching me as a bathe to make sure I don't" -he cleared his throat- "'attempt' anything. She's even dealt with me lashing out at her. Although those times are rare, I admit to a few...
"I don't know how, exactly, she does this... this whole... caring thing... even if she hates you, even if you've wronged her, and even if she has her own problems to take care of... she's always there for you when you need someone. Of course, she'll deny having such a large heart. It's just how she is. But it's there, and it's very large, and she's such... she's so much like mother." he sighed, biting down on his bottom lip and trying not to remember his long-dead parents. "Sin... she was never like that. She was so utterly... selfish that she only cared about herself and her own problems. Everything was about her. What was wrong with you, immediately was compared to her own life. Her focus was to have a child, and yet she can't even really care for one. She... all these flaws... so many that I cannot go on, for it would take days. Why didn't I notice them before...?" he sighed and leaned back in his chair, flattening his antennae down.
He bit his lip, before slamming his hand down on the desk, hard, the sudden change in emotion spiking his antennae, as the do when he's angry or alert. "GOD DAMMIT!" he yelled, throwing papers down. "I loved her! I STILL DO! Why is it ANYTHING I love, or cherish, or become attached too is torn away from me? Why can't I be happy for once?" he began pacing, throwing his hands up and then flattening down his antennae with a shaky, agitated hand. His figure became shrouded by the dark room, but his voice was loud and clear. "Why do I still feel I need her? Why do I still love her after she's taken so much? WHY?" he threw his hands up again, then fell to his knees, curling in a ball. He sobbed, for a few minutes, before composing himself again.
He stood up and walked over to the camera, latching onto the edge of the table it lied upon for dear life. "I-... I'm making this video diary for... those whom might miss me. No, I'm not committing suicide, I'm not a coward... but in a way I am. I'm afraid... my sanity is... slipping. Dez had explained to me what it felt like to start slipping into the catatonic state like she was in before. I feel the same. And I know... I know what's going to happen, it's like... instinct... I know what is going to happen. I know what I'm doing, I can barely get up out of bed anymore. It's further than just a depression... I'm numb. Numb, and then a flare of emotion. Numb again, and the flares become farther apart, and much more rare.
"The sad part is... it feels... welcoming. Anything is better than this almost physical pain. It hurts worse than my eye. I just... I just want the pain to st-" he stopped speaking, his antennae perking at a sound. As he moved to turn around, the figure of a girl, of a short height, is seen. Her face is shrouded by the darkness. She sets her hands in her pockets, leaning back against the wall. "Well, that's too bad, Zeeks. I'm not going to let that happen. Not at all. I won't let you. I care about ya too much to let you mentally die like that. So, suck it up, twerp. And get your ass up there for supper." she said, an headed back up the stairs herself.
Zeke stared at the place she was for a while, then turned around to turn off the camera. "Or... not... I suppose, since that bitch won't let me..." he allowed himself a small smile, the dark circles under his eyes seeming to lighten slightly as he did so. He clicked a button, and the screen went black.